Progesterone Poisoning

I've about had it. Hormones suck. I'm 12 weeks this friday. I'm so glad to almost be out of this craziness. This pregnancy has been a little weird. I don't know if i'm just working too hard or if this pregnancy is a little more fragile than the first two. At 10 weeks I had a threatened miscarriage. I just started pouring blood for no reason at all. The cramps were terrible. I thought for sure I was going to loose the baby. So, of course I was put on bedrest...it turns out everything is fine. Baby has a strong heartbeat and is growing well. Everytime I get up and try to live life normally I start feeling crampy though. My kids are really starting to hate it. We live upstairs mostly. We venture downstairs every couple of hours for something to eat and drink. Drake is the worst of the two. He's become a very angry kid. I don't blame him. There's not much I can do about it though. My friends try to come get him and entertain him for a while. I'm not a good pregnant person. I hate it. It feels like torture and it's much harder with 2 kids to look after. I'm just not a good sick person in general. I can't stand it when my house is out of order. I hate that my kids sheets haven't been washed in weeks. I can't stand looking at towels on the floor in the bathroom. I get sick just thinking about cleaning it up. It's all I can do to pick up my room once a week. It's starts to look like that show Hoarders...it drives me nuts. I've lost all social contact with my friends here. I'm not very much fun to hang out with because I don't talk much. The gallons of spit in my mouth won't let me. I get sick if I try without at least sucking on some candy. Then, after the candy is gone my stomach hurts from the sweetness. One of the things that I can really live without is this nasty taste in my mouth. It doesn't matter what kind of mouth wash I use, it's still there. The only thing that makes it go away is eating. Once i'm done eating it comes back worse. Some days all the kids do is scream and fight. I can't stand those days. I just think I only have to do this amount of time 2 more times and I'm done. It's hard without family here to help and Hyrum is at work ALL the time. I knew this would be the situation going in to this though. I can do this. It'll all the worth it in the end. I'll look back on these days and cringe...actually i'll probably forget all the terrible stuff. You seem to forget it all once you hold the baby for the first time. It's crazy how baby amnesia works, but I guess if it didn't the human race would cease to exist.